well heyy kids its been a while

yeah so for the past like 349875 days it seems like ive been going nonstop its been pretty krazy.. this has been like the best week of my life.. u know whats funny though? ha is that it COULD very well be the worst week of my life if i let it be... but its not!!! so yup even though ive been with a lotta different people this week and ive been doing a lotta stuff ive taken a lotta time 2 just kinda step back & think about how much i dont need some of the things that ive been hanging on to.. and how those few things are creating ALL of the drama that WAS in my life.. thats now OUT of my life bc im leaving it comlpetley behind and forgiving & forgetting. life is serioulsy too short to go through it always worried and always thinking about either ur past or ur future. whats wrong with right now? if u waste every single moment of the day thinking about the next moment then how are u sposed 2 really live?

another thing i was thinking about was how we all say we love each other but only because of certain things that we have or do. i asked my dad yesterday what he thought unconditional love was & he said it was loving someone for who they are, not for who you want them to be or how you want them to change. and wow im really guilty right there b/c i judge people SO much by how they treat me.. and its not gonna change because its just the way they are. sometimes u just have 2 accept certain ppl and certain sitiuations and just try as hard as u can to see the good in them. im not saying its easy at all, its probly one of the hardest things in the world for me to do, because the second i lock eyes with certain people, my guard automatically goes up and i just try and distance myself from them the best i can, because they've hurt me or ive had bad past experiences with them. but i think that with a certain amount of faith and love u can break down the wall and eventually *yeah it takes time* you'll see them as you did before.

thats about all i got 4 right now.. gotta go get ready 2 go 2 michelles!

peace & love kids * cathie